A few years ago, I was browsing the Sport Bible, the online bible of soccer players.
As a white soccer player, I had no problem with either color.
But when it came to the black, I felt uneasy.
“I feel like it could be the black that is bad,” I told myself.
“That could be something that would come back and hurt you.”
I felt like I was making a big mistake by thinking about my own race.
I was only concerned with my own body, I thought.
In the end, I chose the white.
For the first time in my life, I didn’t feel like a white person in a predominantly white environment.
In addition, I could see the potential of black players as professionals, and I was excited to see them succeed.
But that same year, I became aware of the fact that there were still a lot of white players who felt the same way.
A number of white coaches and players I spoke with told me that white players were still being held back because of the perceived racism in their sport.
Many white players also felt uncomfortable speaking up about race, believing that they would be judged more harshly than their black teammates.
One of the most common reasons for white players not speaking up is the perception that they don’t fit into white culture.
Many of them feel they aren’t considered as racially diverse as their black counterparts.
“White players aren’t afforded the same level of respect as black players because of how they play,” said James Brown, a former soccer player and head coach at the University of North Carolina.
“They’re expected to play the same as everyone else.
They have to play like everyone else.”
White players are often told to “grow up” or “grow out of” their past mistakes.
The idea of growing out of one’s mistakes has led some to “blame” black players for past wrongs and even worse, for making the same mistakes that white people have made.
In other words, white players feel that the way they play is not representative of their race.
But white players can be so often judged for their own behavior that it can make them feel like they don.
When white players make mistakes, the only way for them to get a positive response is to publicly share their mistakes and apologize for them.
But it’s hard to find black players who are willing to share their past experiences.
“Some black players won’t even talk about it,” said Brown.
“A lot of them have their coaches tell them to just shut up, because the coaches are not going to hear from them.”
I’ve talked to coaches who say that the coaches only get a handful of black and white players to share what happened when they were teammates.
In reality, it’s a rare occurrence.
When I spoke to a black soccer player who wanted to share his own experience with me, he said he wasn’t going to.
He also said that many white players felt the need to “shut up” and didn’t want to get their names in the paper.
When black players don’t get a response, they feel that they are being judged and that they need to act differently to “protect themselves.”
For black players, it can be even harder to share how their mistakes impacted them.
Black players often don’t have the luxury of having white teammates to speak about them.
“Black players are more isolated, and they’re more scared of the negative comments and the comments that they’ve received,” said Anthony Cole, a coach at University of Missouri.
“The coaches don’t want them to talk about their mistakes, because it’s just not OK to do so.
So they are afraid to talk.”
In fact, black players often feel as though their black friends are the ones who are doing all the talking, rather than them.
As long as white coaches don, white athletes feel as if they have to take responsibility for their mistakes.
White coaches feel that black players have to “be accountable” for their bad behavior, Cole said.
“When you get criticized for not doing the right thing, you are accountable for the way you behave, the way that you play,” he said.
And that makes it hard for black players to speak up.
When it comes to speaking up, black soccer players often see themselves as the ones being “blamed” for making mistakes.
Black and white coaches often disagree about why black players feel they need more punishment than white players.
Some coaches believe that black people are “trying to keep them down.”
And some coaches say that because black players can’t be criticized, they aren’ t getting the chance to learn from their mistakes because white players are “taking advantage of us.”
It’s this “blaming” that many black players say has made them feel isolated and powerless.
When they are not criticized, black and brown players often believe that they can do whatever they want and no one will ever be held accountable.
“As black players we